Saturday, December 15, 2012

“百年的树” 录音小记

主要人物
荟=词曲创作人=小妹妹=歌手
我=和音演唱人=大姐姐



在车上
下午3点,我们在车上,妈妈开着车,荟(词曲创作人)戴着耳机已经在后座睡着。她在听什么呢?是等下要录的歌吗?
车上充满了炒粿条的味道,那是我刚刚吃完的午餐,由妈妈贴心打包

我和妈妈努力看路牌,找那条回家的高速公路。妈妈错过了路口,后来又不小心绕上了对的路。妈妈说:新山的路真的很乱吧。我说:对我和你来说,很乱。对爸爸和伦来说一点都不乱。我还补充说明,我的路痴绝对是基因和遗传所致,绝对。妈妈乐呵呵地同意我的说法。

妹妹在半途中醒来。我说:怎样?作曲家,我唱你二姐姐编的和音给你听?
好。
她缓缓拿起MP3,我说:你慢慢开你的音乐,我先大概唱一下。我们就合唱起来。然后她就在唱的过程中把MP3收回包里。唱完了我说,你的音乐开到哪里去了?
啊……
她又重包里拿出MP3。我心想,又是基因,跟我一样不能multi-task(一心多用)。
然后我们又重唱了几遍。作曲家似乎挺满意,并表示,第一遍的和音比较好听。我说:当然,你二姐姐写的哦。第二遍只是三度而已。作曲家问:什么是三度。我:Do和Mi。

我们到家了。一路上,妈妈似乎有些想法,不过没说什么。默默开车。我心想:父母都是这样的,总是默默地,观察和支持着



在家里
我们在家里又练了几遍。作曲家给了一个意见。而我这个唱和音的不免像个老大姐对我亲爱的小妹妹说:就是这样啦,现在这样唱,是你最好的样子。就这样唱吧!咬字放轻松一点。

练够了。妹妹开了Details in the Fabric来听,给自己打气。过后好像还播了曲婉婷的不知道什么歌。

4点30分,我们准点出发。妈妈在转进Sentosa之后,突然问,现在转左还是右?
啊。我和妹妹马上拿起地图,好像很懂的样子,说直走、右。然后就发现,噢,方向反了。
哈哈。路痴载着两个她生的路痴。。。



在录音室里
我们大概稍稍迟了5分钟吧。录音师被作曲家称作“哥哥”。哥哥开始让作曲家兼歌手的小妹妹练习。然后是一遍又一遍,一遍再一遍地唱。我很佩服荟的嗓子,那么用力唱那么多遍,直到一个小时后,才在一遍中开始出现两个破音。我看着镜子里反射她唱歌投入的肢体动作,觉得很幸福

啊,突然想起,我特地带回家的相机,竟然(果然)还是留在家里。所以用我的E63捕捉了荟在录音时的样子。

到我唱和音的时候啦。因为和音不会听得很清楚,所以录得相当快。2到3遍便搞定了

我们谢谢录音师“哥哥”,给作曲家的大姐夫(我老公)拨电话,我们约好在某饮食店前被接送之后,往饮食店走去。



在录音后
走到饮食店门口时,荟说:这次搞演出(学校舞蹈团的常年演出),我学到。东西改来改去,最后还是不会喜欢的。
她继续说起之前创作的毕业歌从得奖之后、录音、到拍摄MV的经过。
所以,荟说:最重要,我喜欢。如果我都不喜欢,别人跟我说很好听,我也不会开心。

啊……真是一个创作者的心底话呀

我说:羡慕你们哦。都能自己创作出一个作品。编舞、编剧、写歌、导演什么什么。我做不到

后来,大姐夫的车子出现(车子被我们亲切地唤作“小黄”)。有大姐夫开车,我们不用认路,一路愉快聊天回家吃晚餐囖



Saturday, October 20, 2012

不能不爱自己

昨天,我的好朋友带着我去听了一场演唱会

对sdg的歌并不特别熟。不过也有一首非常喜欢的叫做:是我的海
想去,是因为栋说:听他们的演唱会,会哭哦
演唱会就在我生日隔天,也像是一种暗号



我不报任何期待地去了(和往常一样)
前边几首我不是很熟。不过,我听到了
歌曲里面的“自己”
感觉到守护那个“自己”像是sdg歌曲里头的一种精神

好朋友说了一句:不要那么害羞嘛
于是还未warm up的我跟着已经warm up的他一起站起来一起哼唱

后来是一组慢歌
在后来,青峰播出了自己的vo诉说医院病房的一段回忆
就要走出门外的他被床上的父亲叫住
父亲迟了几秒,说了一句,要加油哦
说到这里,大家都。。。
后来他播出那一刻以后自己为爸爸写的歌的demo
我和他,我们,各自感受,各自拭泪
演唱会后,他说,遗憾她不在身边。也许可能或许他说的是这一刻

一首歌里,青峰唱了给阿妹写的《我最亲爱的》
我想起了超级多年没见到的东祥。
后半首想起了好久没见的自己。爱我你就不会孤单
也许我爱我自己,我就不会孤单,不是吗?

后来演唱会又再high起来,好像就是《是我的海》来作转折的
后来有点歌时间,后来又有high歌时间,再后来我们一起踏出场外
忙着的是怎么回家的事。如此而已

谢谢你(们)给了我这一个夜晚
我不知道该怎么做
不过我知道接下来10年也比过去更接近自己。千万不要忘记
而让自己找不到自己和别人、其他人、所有人有什么不同

谢谢栋、永健(超就没有这样叫你)、早上第一手听我的感受的爱人

Monday, August 27, 2012

记录 Wong Family's Photo 2012

全家福,拿着看着,说真的比结婚照幸福
应该是因为看到爸爸妈妈很开心吧

先是上车,妹妹递给妈妈那张爸爸妈妈的合照
也许妈妈是意外的,只以为我拿的那个大盒子是唯一的照片
在车上,我帮妈妈打开装那张爸爸妈妈的合照的较小盒子
妈妈看着,什么表情我不知道
不过,正开车的爸爸也分神了

我们在红绿灯前停下
赶紧又把刚刚沾上去的胶纸撕掉
打开大幅的给爸爸妈妈看
我提起照片,仍然看不到他们的表情

车子又继续往前,妈妈拿出一张张小照片慢慢看,我猜是微笑着的
爸爸说,没关系,我到宽中了慢慢看

抵达宽中,我们下车,留爸爸妈妈在车上看照片
我心里想着,回家后要尽快scan了share给弟弟们看
站在车子前,我看到爸爸眯起眼睛在看照片
应该是老花吧
他的微笑真好看

深夜,演唱会及叙旧之后回家
我和大妹妹还是很兴奋地把大幅照片拿起在墙上比一比
看哪个高度适合
这时,照片的保护层已经是被拆开,摆在沙发上了的
我猜想,爸爸妈妈小妹妹先行回家以后是否也兴奋地拿出来仔细看看呢?

今早,爸爸动手把照片挂上
之后站着欣赏一番
评价新女婿长得像,感觉多了一个儿子
还说新女婿鼻子最挺最好看

之后,爸爸走到钢琴上,拿起那张爸爸妈妈的合照
看着,他说,这张最美

我把照片scan进电脑,发去facebook
然后叫爸爸妈妈来看成果
告诉他们全世界现在都看得到啰
他叫妈妈,丽贞,来看看你的孩子,全部长这么大了

Saturday, August 25, 2012

零星的想法 2

这些是最近感兴趣的事物 Some things I am interested recently

poetry 诗
rock music 摇滚乐

wondering what is insides these things? why some of the most influential people list them as their core inspiration source? 我想知道,里头有什么让很多不平凡的人从中找到力量。

Friday, August 17, 2012

零星的想法 1

14-16 aug
我想着
到了澳洲
要买小绵羊(机车)
骑小绵羊
到处吹风


Wednesday, August 15, 2012

认真?坚持?地做着喜欢的好玩的事?

今天心血来潮
决定不管三七二十一
在工作的时间看起黄韵玲的书来
她的文字非常轻盈
我快速地翻了后面四分之三本

好玩 据说是她目前为止有多重身份的原因
主持、戏剧、舞台剧、歌手、制作人、作曲人等等
噢还有广播

龚学长也说
我不过是做着自己喜欢做的事,尽量做到最好而已

某个地方的某个人也说了
不管是什么行业。要“成功”,是要有企图心的
再不然就是天才了(少有不过不是没有)

我也想知道 我现在或下一件可以说自己真的很喜欢
可以“尽量做到最好”而已就能感受快乐的事
是什么

看电影
生活里面遇到的事
我都会在心里默默问自己 -- 是这一件事吗?

像michael moore 关于universal health system的电影 - 让我想到NGOs?是我下一个想要去学习努力的地方吗?
像刚刚主持的读书会,阿姨们非常热情地告诉我,你早该来参加我们的读书会,你做得很好,我们参加了这么多年,感觉今天这一次真的很不错

每天每天看到很多人事物
我在想,这是暗示吗?

未来,离开了这个岛国
我的语言能力、表达能力能够如何被更好的利用来做更好的事呢?

努力的感觉 - 有时很痛苦 - 但是过后总是非常快乐
寻找的感觉 - 也很迷茫 - 但是终究在时机成熟的时候
我会知道 下一步 该怎么走

15 aug 2012 在 bukit panjang library 分享张家骏的“踩着黄丝带走回家的路”后
阅读黄韵玲的《有时候懒一点反而好》
心里对于鼓励新加坡年轻一辈享受中文阅读乐趣的任务,感到力不从心的一天


Wednesday, August 08, 2012

7 周年

很多事情
很多话
在有了facebook的年代
变得更加轻飘
变成瞬间
之后无迹可寻
无从整理或回忆
也绝对不会想要回头去挖掘

不过这件事
不一样

它要经历7X365个日子才能得到

这是我们的7周年纪念日

你送了我一朵玫瑰
你说我笑得很开心
你说,车上的人,大概会想,这男人怎么这么寒酸
你知道,我知道你知道,
我就只需要这么一朵

谢谢你

花,终于是老了
要凋谢了
可是,这份细心
会记得的

也希望你喜欢我们一起买的送给你的衣物

Monday, March 05, 2012

写在3月3号之后

我最深刻记得的是老公在台上说

自由

他认为我最感动的应该是他给我的自由
我要去哪里,就去哪里
我想做什么,就做什么

我。。。其实不能完全确定事实会不会是这个样子
不过,他,实在,非常,透彻地了解我

他竟然提醒了我

向往自由是我原来的样子
我一直一直一直想要的还是自由

什么是自由?
为什么要自由?
自由了要干嘛?

其实我不知道
也许自由本该是没有样子的
所以我不知道
都不知道

对于自由的向往,我自己好久没有去提及或表达或想象
也许,不知不觉中,我们还是实践了
比如,他说要去别的地方工作,就他
我完全不抗拒
他说一年回来
我想,我大概说,好
其实,该回来的时候,就会回来的


我真的是无与伦比的幸运

我的朋友在宴会中分享了对我的想法(好的那一部分)
说我能为别人的开心而开心,为别人的难过而难过(这点我是认同的,有时候说一个群体的事情,或一个观察,也会鼻酸。。。)
我的朋友说我的新老公(就觉得他是新的)想法和人不同,这我也认同
比如今天,一只苍蝇竟然自己降落在餐桌上的装着酱油的小碟子里头
我只是看着,老公竟拿起筷子,翻过方向,开始把苍蝇往碟外推
他关心一只苍蝇,想要救起他
我想他的内心一定无比无比的善良
我知道他心中的小男孩还在、还好好地在呼吸、在加油

在台上,老公回忆了初识的印象,也慢慢说到了要保护我的心意
我则无法控制眼泪的分享了在我心中难忘的时刻。敬茶时妈妈爸爸说的话。和仲伦的家人的合照让我在刹那间感觉到加入了他们的家庭。宴席开始时的进场让我瞬间感受到好大好大好多好多深刻的祝福


我好健忘好健忘

所以我不想,不过,还是会忘记很多昨天发生的事

如果有一件事非记得不可
我希望记得我和老公整个晚上,每一吻,每一个眼神,每一个用拥抱都是自然的,真诚的,在非常非常多关爱自己的亲人、朋友的面前
我们深深地感激,感受,笑着


爱你们
凯璇

Thursday, February 23, 2012

1 week 3 nights - 忙碌的结婚前夕

Bad...我果然不能成为伟大的人,没能自律规律写东西

话说前几晚,老公看着我们非一般的婚纱摄影馆的其他作品,说:看了其他人的照片,觉得我们的其实不怎样

: ) 亲爱的,美怎么会有止境呢?

在我心中,我们用美丽的心情筹备度过那一天是最最重要的啦

而我知道,你会make it happen

在你面前的我,有时候实在很令人厌恶吧

比如说:"你好烦"
比如说,很想你注意我
比如说,听起来就是一个压力很大不开心的人
再比如,听起来超级没笑容,好想你欠我超级多钱似的

我不明白,为什么对自己用心用情,宠爱,呵护,谦让,体贴,原谅,倾心的人
为什么我对你却这么不好呢?

我想
了
又想

是不是最最真实的我,就是如此不堪的
也许是这样,大概是这样吧

所以,为了要对对自己用心用情,宠爱,呵护,谦让,体贴,原谅,倾心的人更好
唯有努力变成更好的人
嗯


噢,你说,穷,好穷
嗯。是这样没有错
是个问题,好像
不过,不是最大的问题,好像

爱你。让我拥有很多。包括相信我们会很好
生活很好
好好生活


幸运的我
2012。2。23

Monday, February 13, 2012

2 weeks 6 nights - choosing wedding gowns

Two busy days have passed. These two days the main achievement was to select my gowns for wedding day.

I tried about 10 dresses, in order to choose 2 out of them. because I slept very little at the night of Friday. On sat, I really felt exhausted half way trying. How exhausted actually feel like? I began to feel it wasn't fun to try anymore dresses. So I stopped. I really had to. Or else, I wouldn't love any dresses I put on then, and it would be a waste of two jiejies' effort who helped me choosing dresses, and got me insider the dresses.

Anyway, that afternoon was fun one at the end. With two friends who were there for dress trying as well (this is very cool! My frien & his fiancé were trying wedding outfits at the same time with us). After my break, the dresses I tried on became more ... Wao for laogong. So my energy level slowly got higher.

I left without deciding which two dresses to take around 8pm (aft 3 hrs there). & four of us went for dinner. The dinner talking was mostly about wedding. My fren is going to have two big ones in two different places. We heard them discussed things we had discussed before, or problems we don't really have.

Sunday, I woke up beside my laogong. This isn't something I can enjoy everyday since he has left to work in Penang. This is stil a moment I like. I touched him gently and slowly, and his eyes opened just after one stroke of touch.

Back to the story of wedding dresses, my studio called me asking if I can confirm my dress as all the ones I tried would be on hold, and no other brides can try them before I decide. Oh. I didn't know that. So over phone I quickly confirmed one. And ... The 2nd one, I can't confirmed.

Over that csll, a gOOd news from Sasa, who is one of the jiejies who work in my studio, they are giving me one more dress. Woo, they are generous! I thought. And I am very grateful.

So by end of the day. I had all 3 dresses confirmed. Cool. I like all 3 of them. Except one of them is really challenging to wear. You will see it when the day comes.

The best moment: I will wear one white gown in the morning, when I have my Chinese traditional ceremony. Tea. Guo Men (I.e. married into the family). And we were back the the studio again on Sun, trying to decide which white gown is the one. Yuers jiejie asked, which one? And I said, i am married to loon that morning, so I wanna wear the one he likes the most, let him decide. Then, looking at loon, both of us looked towards him. He said, I wanna she to wear the one she likes the most, so let her pick the one.

Ohhh... That's really, really sweet of him. And he's really thoughtful 体贴 to me 99.99% of the time. This is definitely one of the many moments he showered me with his love gently. So, I will wear my chosen one in the morning. And I'm sure he loves the first dress I'm going to wear during that night. He said, he had 100 WaoS when he saw me in my very last dress tried on.

Thank you, my studio, Enya Mareine. The jiejies, gogos, who work there. They are like friends to me.

And of course, my dear laogong, who makes everything a little better, only because he wants me to feel the best.

Thanks.

Thursday, February 09, 2012

3 weeks 2 nights. -- sleeping

je suis tres fatigue aujourd'hui
i'm just too tired today


i m very sleepy today. i slept on the train, standing

i have not been able to do that for long. the last was when i was in high school, i guessed.
making myself feel tired, this tired, is good. feel alive again :) haha

talking about sleepy, because i'm sleepy now as well.
today 'memory' blog will be short.

one or two very, very close friends, siblings might have known this

when we were in Uni, where i met and fell in love with loon.
i somehow created this ... i call it a ritual for now

back track a little bit, i remember when i was even younger, in high school year.
i sort of had this understanding of myself. i thought, if one day, i found a lover or  'i m attached' (in lay man term)
i knew (i thought) i would trust him wholeheartedly. i would want to be with him a lot, a lot. because i had been deprived of him or any romantic love all the time before i met him

so, when i was in Uni, i remember, i was always the one who would feel sleepy first, and the one who would sleep earlier. so not sure when and how did it start.

at night, when i'm about to sleep, and if loon and i happened to just finish walking, chatting, da da da...
i would lie down in my bed, ask him to sit at the side of my bed. i would continue talking to him, holding one of his hand, till i fall sleep.

thus, there were many many nights, i went into sleep this way.
to me, this is a kind of happiness.

Wednesday, February 08, 2012

3 weeks 3 nights away from 3 Mar 2012 - daily blog no.1


how do u feel? - my friend asked
how do i feel? - i think i need to ask my inner self

i  remember, the first time i looked at him, he was at the door.

he was at door of a bus. the bus was receiving all of us who were the freshmen of NTU from Malaysia. he was manning our bus, responsible for getting these young sheep safe and sound to the campus.

i didnt know whom he was speaking too. he looked outward, talking to someone. So i saw him, standing at the door of bus. i saw his left face only. i remember his hair had a little bit of gold. shinning.

do you find the guy at the front door good looking - my good friend Ng asked me.

oh. friend. you have known me for many years. you know i always like guy who looks a bit like street artist, busker, have long hairs... he is not my type. - i answered

our conversation was that short, i believed. and we were referring to him from the last and second last row of that bus.

that was the moment i first took a look at him.
my good friend asked me to.