3 weeks 2 nights. -- sleeping

je suis tres fatigue aujourd'hui
i'm just too tired today


i m very sleepy today. i slept on the train, standing

i have not been able to do that for long. the last was when i was in high school, i guessed.
making myself feel tired, this tired, is good. feel alive again :) haha

talking about sleepy, because i'm sleepy now as well.
today 'memory' blog will be short.

one or two very, very close friends, siblings might have known this

when we were in Uni, where i met and fell in love with loon.
i somehow created this ... i call it a ritual for now

back track a little bit, i remember when i was even younger, in high school year.
i sort of had this understanding of myself. i thought, if one day, i found a lover or  'i m attached' (in lay man term)
i knew (i thought) i would trust him wholeheartedly. i would want to be with him a lot, a lot. because i had been deprived of him or any romantic love all the time before i met him

so, when i was in Uni, i remember, i was always the one who would feel sleepy first, and the one who would sleep earlier. so not sure when and how did it start.

at night, when i'm about to sleep, and if loon and i happened to just finish walking, chatting, da da da...
i would lie down in my bed, ask him to sit at the side of my bed. i would continue talking to him, holding one of his hand, till i fall sleep.

thus, there were many many nights, i went into sleep this way.
to me, this is a kind of happiness.