this is a non-working weekday for me.
i tell myself, i shall run after i write this blog.
casual poet - 2011-04-24 - mother's story by 1003casualpoet
i'm listenig to the above when i m typing.
she is a special girl. i still think that she is some kind of lucky girl, born in a rich family.
but other than my jealousy, i admit, she is different, in an admiring way
reading her blog, it makes one think about 'self'
我觉得我变得平凡了
i wonder if someone think of 'self' but have no idea how he or she has become, is it better or worse
it must be quite worrying, or not?
i have lost some kind of sensitivity - i thought it is part of growing up - or maybe it is just a kind of loss
anyway. since being attached with my current husband, and then get married, being nourished in a certain kind of way has unknowingly made me probably a more lovable and loving person. i have been stirred away from the sentimental and the ‘rather pessimistic' kind of me. yet, deep down, i know i admire people who writes, who thinks a lot, who cries, who rambles their crazy thoughts. they are out of norm. they are special, being themselves, less assimilated. when i last went sing K with my dear sis, i know i sing my emotions out with some songs by zhang xuan, chen shan ni ...
anyway. there is nothing to regret about, or can be regretted about, or need to be regretted about
nothing
i experience my days in a very nourishing way. i grow.
and next, when husband is away for his dream in penang (malaysia), when i m going to have my single room (my 1st ever in life), i guess i would experience life differently. i know being alone for a while before we finally settle together forever is a good thing. everyone needs to connect with someone. at the same time, everyone needs to be with 'self' every now and then too.
i wish me & my husband who brings me to experience a life that is very different without him
we both live, feel, learn, grow, smile, cry, sometime together, other time alone
knowing someone loves you - no matter what - is a kind of happiness
: )
**ps - casual poet is a show @radio1003.com / FM 100.3 in Singapore Sun 10pm-12mn
visit her blog @http://blog.casualpoet.com/
wt love filled my heart
kai xuan
2 comments:
same kind of feeling with you, kaixuan.
the uniqueness from friends or strangers around us is so bright and made us think alot about "self".
Well, i have to say you are so special and unique, I can feel your strong identity and sometime i do admire you!
you are an orange, healthy n juicy!
Love.
we r admiring each other, dear anna
thanks for ur nice words.
u stay healthy & beautiful
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