我最深刻记得的是老公在台上说
自由
他认为我最感动的应该是他给我的自由
我要去哪里，就去哪里
我想做什么，就做什么
我。。。其实不能完全确定事实会不会是这个样子
不过，他，实在，非常，透彻地了解我
他竟然提醒了我
向往自由是我原来的样子
我一直一直一直想要的还是自由
什么是自由？
为什么要自由？
自由了要干嘛？
其实我不知道
也许自由本该是没有样子的
所以我不知道
都不知道
对于自由的向往，我自己好久没有去提及或表达或想象
也许，不知不觉中，我们还是实践了
比如，他说要去别的地方工作，就他
我完全不抗拒
他说一年回来
我想，我大概说，好
其实，该回来的时候，就会回来的
我真的是无与伦比的幸运
我的朋友在宴会中分享了对我的想法（好的那一部分）
说我能为别人的开心而开心，为别人的难过而难过（这点我是认同的，有时候说一个群体的事情，或一个观察，也会鼻酸。。。）
我的朋友说我的新老公（就觉得他是新的）想法和人不同，这我也认同
比如今天，一只苍蝇竟然自己降落在餐桌上的装着酱油的小碟子里头
我只是看着，老公竟拿起筷子，翻过方向，开始把苍蝇往碟外推
他关心一只苍蝇，想要救起他
我想他的内心一定无比无比的善良
我知道他心中的小男孩还在、还好好地在呼吸、在加油
在台上，老公回忆了初识的印象，也慢慢说到了要保护我的心意
我则无法控制眼泪的分享了在我心中难忘的时刻。敬茶时妈妈爸爸说的话。和仲伦的家人的合照让我在刹那间感觉到加入了他们的家庭。宴席开始时的进场让我瞬间感受到好大好大好多好多深刻的祝福
我好健忘好健忘
所以我不想，不过，还是会忘记很多昨天发生的事
如果有一件事非记得不可
我希望记得我和老公整个晚上，每一吻，每一个眼神，每一个用拥抱都是自然的，真诚的，在非常非常多关爱自己的亲人、朋友的面前
我们深深地感激，感受，笑着
爱你们
凯璇
Monday, March 05, 2012
Thursday, February 23, 2012
1 week 3 nights - 忙碌的结婚前夕
Bad...我果然不能成为伟大的人，没能自律规律写东西
话说前几晚，老公看着我们非一般的婚纱摄影馆的其他作品，说：看了其他人的照片，觉得我们的其实不怎样
: ) 亲爱的，美怎么会有止境呢？
在我心中，我们用美丽的心情筹备度过那一天是最最重要的啦
而我知道，你会make it happen
在你面前的我，有时候实在很令人厌恶吧
比如说：＂你好烦＂
比如说，很想你注意我
比如说，听起来就是一个压力很大不开心的人
再比如，听起来超级没笑容，好想你欠我超级多钱似的
我不明白，为什么对自己用心用情，宠爱，呵护，谦让，体贴，原谅，倾心的人
为什么我对你却这么不好呢？
我想
了
又想
是不是最最真实的我，就是如此不堪的
也许是这样，大概是这样吧
所以，为了要对对自己用心用情，宠爱，呵护，谦让，体贴，原谅，倾心的人更好
唯有努力变成更好的人
嗯
噢，你说，穷，好穷
嗯。是这样没有错
是个问题，好像
不过，不是最大的问题，好像
爱你。让我拥有很多。包括相信我们会很好
生活很好
好好生活
幸运的我
2012。2。23
话说前几晚，老公看着我们非一般的婚纱摄影馆的其他作品，说：看了其他人的照片，觉得我们的其实不怎样
: ) 亲爱的，美怎么会有止境呢？
在我心中，我们用美丽的心情筹备度过那一天是最最重要的啦
而我知道，你会make it happen
在你面前的我，有时候实在很令人厌恶吧
比如说：＂你好烦＂
比如说，很想你注意我
比如说，听起来就是一个压力很大不开心的人
再比如，听起来超级没笑容，好想你欠我超级多钱似的
我不明白，为什么对自己用心用情，宠爱，呵护，谦让，体贴，原谅，倾心的人
为什么我对你却这么不好呢？
我想
了
又想
是不是最最真实的我，就是如此不堪的
也许是这样，大概是这样吧
所以，为了要对对自己用心用情，宠爱，呵护，谦让，体贴，原谅，倾心的人更好
唯有努力变成更好的人
嗯
噢，你说，穷，好穷
嗯。是这样没有错
是个问题，好像
不过，不是最大的问题，好像
爱你。让我拥有很多。包括相信我们会很好
生活很好
好好生活
幸运的我
2012。2。23
Monday, February 13, 2012
2 weeks 6 nights - choosing wedding gowns
Two busy days have passed. These two days the main achievement was to select my gowns for wedding day.
I tried about 10 dresses, in order to choose 2 out of them. because I slept very little at the night of Friday. On sat, I really felt exhausted half way trying. How exhausted actually feel like? I began to feel it wasn't fun to try anymore dresses. So I stopped. I really had to. Or else, I wouldn't love any dresses I put on then, and it would be a waste of two jiejies' effort who helped me choosing dresses, and got me insider the dresses.
Anyway, that afternoon was fun one at the end. With two friends who were there for dress trying as well (this is very cool! My frien & his fiancé were trying wedding outfits at the same time with us). After my break, the dresses I tried on became more ... Wao for laogong. So my energy level slowly got higher.
I left without deciding which two dresses to take around 8pm (aft 3 hrs there). & four of us went for dinner. The dinner talking was mostly about wedding. My fren is going to have two big ones in two different places. We heard them discussed things we had discussed before, or problems we don't really have.
Sunday, I woke up beside my laogong. This isn't something I can enjoy everyday since he has left to work in Penang. This is stil a moment I like. I touched him gently and slowly, and his eyes opened just after one stroke of touch.
Back to the story of wedding dresses, my studio called me asking if I can confirm my dress as all the ones I tried would be on hold, and no other brides can try them before I decide. Oh. I didn't know that. So over phone I quickly confirmed one. And ... The 2nd one, I can't confirmed.
Over that csll, a gOOd news from Sasa, who is one of the jiejies who work in my studio, they are giving me one more dress. Woo, they are generous! I thought. And I am very grateful.
So by end of the day. I had all 3 dresses confirmed. Cool. I like all 3 of them. Except one of them is really challenging to wear. You will see it when the day comes.
The best moment: I will wear one white gown in the morning, when I have my Chinese traditional ceremony. Tea. Guo Men (I.e. married into the family). And we were back the the studio again on Sun, trying to decide which white gown is the one. Yuers jiejie asked, which one? And I said, i am married to loon that morning, so I wanna wear the one he likes the most, let him decide. Then, looking at loon, both of us looked towards him. He said, I wanna she to wear the one she likes the most, so let her pick the one.
Ohhh... That's really, really sweet of him. And he's really thoughtful 体贴 to me 99.99% of the time. This is definitely one of the many moments he showered me with his love gently. So, I will wear my chosen one in the morning. And I'm sure he loves the first dress I'm going to wear during that night. He said, he had 100 WaoS when he saw me in my very last dress tried on.
Thank you, my studio, Enya Mareine. The jiejies, gogos, who work there. They are like friends to me.
And of course, my dear laogong, who makes everything a little better, only because he wants me to feel the best.
Thanks.
I tried about 10 dresses, in order to choose 2 out of them. because I slept very little at the night of Friday. On sat, I really felt exhausted half way trying. How exhausted actually feel like? I began to feel it wasn't fun to try anymore dresses. So I stopped. I really had to. Or else, I wouldn't love any dresses I put on then, and it would be a waste of two jiejies' effort who helped me choosing dresses, and got me insider the dresses.
Anyway, that afternoon was fun one at the end. With two friends who were there for dress trying as well (this is very cool! My frien & his fiancé were trying wedding outfits at the same time with us). After my break, the dresses I tried on became more ... Wao for laogong. So my energy level slowly got higher.
I left without deciding which two dresses to take around 8pm (aft 3 hrs there). & four of us went for dinner. The dinner talking was mostly about wedding. My fren is going to have two big ones in two different places. We heard them discussed things we had discussed before, or problems we don't really have.
Sunday, I woke up beside my laogong. This isn't something I can enjoy everyday since he has left to work in Penang. This is stil a moment I like. I touched him gently and slowly, and his eyes opened just after one stroke of touch.
Back to the story of wedding dresses, my studio called me asking if I can confirm my dress as all the ones I tried would be on hold, and no other brides can try them before I decide. Oh. I didn't know that. So over phone I quickly confirmed one. And ... The 2nd one, I can't confirmed.
Over that csll, a gOOd news from Sasa, who is one of the jiejies who work in my studio, they are giving me one more dress. Woo, they are generous! I thought. And I am very grateful.
So by end of the day. I had all 3 dresses confirmed. Cool. I like all 3 of them. Except one of them is really challenging to wear. You will see it when the day comes.
The best moment: I will wear one white gown in the morning, when I have my Chinese traditional ceremony. Tea. Guo Men (I.e. married into the family). And we were back the the studio again on Sun, trying to decide which white gown is the one. Yuers jiejie asked, which one? And I said, i am married to loon that morning, so I wanna wear the one he likes the most, let him decide. Then, looking at loon, both of us looked towards him. He said, I wanna she to wear the one she likes the most, so let her pick the one.
Ohhh... That's really, really sweet of him. And he's really thoughtful 体贴 to me 99.99% of the time. This is definitely one of the many moments he showered me with his love gently. So, I will wear my chosen one in the morning. And I'm sure he loves the first dress I'm going to wear during that night. He said, he had 100 WaoS when he saw me in my very last dress tried on.
Thank you, my studio, Enya Mareine. The jiejies, gogos, who work there. They are like friends to me.
And of course, my dear laogong, who makes everything a little better, only because he wants me to feel the best.
Thanks.
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