quick words to end the day

yesterday, may 7th, is best friend of mine's birthday.. i nkow she had a great one...

happy birthday dear

on her birthday. i was 'out for shoot' (i.e. out of office for filming)

there were these few minutes, i was just sitting/standing there to look after the equipments. and i thought, holding a honour degree in mass comm to sit there at take care of the equipments. ShXt. this is definitely NOT what I want, neither did I ever expect this. no one who chose mass comm imagined this when they made the decision.

dear husband talked to me after the shoot, he said, go and look out for other jobs that suit you more? I ... was thinking, in my mind, shall i go and explore the opportunity to work in radio industry in kl? but I dare not say it to him... there's a very complicated issue lied behind/beneath this question. No one else understand it other than two of us...

during this very same shoot, a guy who is a much sought after voice-over talent, said to me, you know you have a good voice? he then talked about the female voice he liked most who is an 60+ year-old lady......

dear me, i'm just not managing myself well. spending hours and hours earning for live. spending hours and hours squeezing myself out for the two hour weekly radio program. and i neglect to explore opportunities to do my fav job every day... and i neglect to explore the potential of me voice-over for more... dear me. just sleep well tonight. do a better job tmr, the day after tmr, and more tmr to come...

dear friend, once again, wish u really well in many many many ways...one day, fall in love deeply and wanting to marry to the nice guy you met :P did i say it to you before? i love you, friend

对得起自己

今天，爱人说了一句可歌可泣的话：对得起自己最重要

简明，有力 呀

当我觉得对不起全世界时，至少我还对得起自己

想想，平时准备节目，做节目，也就求一份对得起自己的心情而已

只有对得起自己，才可能对得起听众

让我们所有人做事都问心无愧，都对得起自己吧！

a new leaf of WORKING life

woo. it's 10.18am now.

right. it's working hour.

let me finish this first, then i start concentrated on work. : P

over the weekend, i & my husband went for a short trip, one without itinerary, no preparation, but prepare a car, some cash, and decide a direction.

it was awesome

what we did? we went in to a comic book shop (tgt, for the first time), he read two while i only finished reading one :)

we walk around, looking at beautiful girls, especially those with nice legs (haha...coz i dont, so we appreciate and admire tgt)

then we got down the car, buy some supersized banana (each is as long as my thigh)

he also keep driving and driving, i sing while enjoying the breeze, scenery by the road, and the smell of villages...

of course, we try to get some good food as dear dear is a foodie. but, we are not so lucky. anyway, we still get our stomach filled with very reasonable price

at nite, we stayed at a very cheap room, RM 40 per night, and it got all we need, a bed, clean toilet... and just two of us play cards... he kept coming out with different ways of playing. that's fun.

in the morning of 2nd day, we woke up naturally, at around 7.30am... wao~ that's a record, a nice record, thus, we spend our day leisurely, relaxed, watched the movie "ice kacang puppy love", and play the basketball game at the slot machines center.

oops but what does the title mean anyway?

while driving home (from his home to my home), i asked am i weird by not getting used to work after so many months? i grumbled about how mundane my work can be. and laogong said, learn to understand the people you dealt with daily... know what they are thinking even they didnt say so

.... hmm... i was then reminded, a book i read (& also shared with listeners). the editor of magazine was doing a job he dislikes much previously, he dislike about all the meetings, and handling customers & colleagues, Yet, he later realised that even when he was doing what he liked most, doing magazine, he has to go for meetings, handling customers and colleagues... and what he learnt in previous job actually helps his editor job.

so. hopefully, dear's reminder brings me a new leaf of working life. kick all the grumbles out. and open my eyes, my ears big big, learn more than what i should and what i think i can, and get out of here, with a better self.

whoosh. kai xuan, kan ba te nek!