just a quick note on my fyp

i am happy about today. as i feel, we get some advancement after quite some time of stagnantation.

we remove many other topics that we had brainstormed, and get 3 topics shortlisted. we answer a question which i feel it's quite important to be answered by ourselves. What we are trying to get from our fyp individually. Everyone's has their own aims and targets. That's a pretty good sign for me though i couldnt explain why i feel so. And i believe, as what wanjing said, we will get there, we will get what we initially want from our fyp at the end of everything.

i believe in that statement too.

some people maybe are smarter, that's why s/he can always point out some points we neglect. thanks for those smart guys around us. our team are moving forward, i feel.

well. i feel the process of doing fyp is a very complicated one. apart from the technical issues we need to face, the arts of communication is very very important.

i know i am preoccupied with an idea that i suggested, and i hope i can persuade others to believe it. but, take one step backward, so do others. they also voice their ideas and feel strongly for it, and hope that i am for his/her ideas too. while i am pushing the discussion, i hope i successfully avoid ... dominating anything... ya... i hope i didnt.

so, ya, aside from Media stuffs.. we are practising, how to work with a team on sth 'big', ya... i cant say it's small for anyone of us, right?

Ian said, VoidDeck is great, until a Philipinos docu comes in. oh.. that opinion once again prove that something about foreign lands easily catch people's eyes balls when all others docus that screening together are done locally... isnt it?

so, if we lose the opportunity to / wont do something out of the country, i hope we at least do something matches the standard of VoidDeck, or ya, surpass it. this's a side-wish of mine for my fyp.

people to work with, is important. very important. probably, the most important factor in the whole process of fyp. thus, i feel, no matter what sacrifices i have to make, if it's for the relationship among the people in team, maybe i should do so to sacrifice, to hope for we work in a happy n fullfiling atmosphere.

but now, before i giving up persuading others. using my low iq brain, what i conclude is, probably, i should not only know and explore what interests me in order to introduce them to my teammates, i should learn about what interests them too, so that probably, we reach a consensus on what is our fyp is going to be about sOOn...

arh... externally, seeing where some other teams are... i am a bit... gan3 jiong1 : )

make a wish here. all the best for our fyp (probably my 1 and only video production in my whole life). wish that we ve good relationship throughout and a long lasting friendship after it is done. best wish for the couple in team too. haha...

oopps. i am a greedy lady, i made 3 wishes...

love my life~

谢谢你的提问，仅此记录作为给自己的提醒

你是怎么下定决心要进入广播界？

其实，是从听广播开始吧。觉得听了有受益，所以希望，也能做能让人有受益的节目。
另外，觉得自己可能也在口才方面有一定能力，相信自己坚持，至少可以做part time吧
而且，除了广播，实在没有什么我想做的了，所以一定要做广播
就像这次共产党的题目不成功，如果拿来做广播纪录片，我一个人慢慢做就可以做出来
所以，我也感觉自己越来越不会跟队伍相处，一个人做，反而觉得自由多一些
再来，觉得自己做广播，隔着什么却又真切的那种感觉，是自己要的，相对于面对面啊…电视啊的交流

痛苦

finally, we got a very very nice (A grade) supervisor for our fyp (Final Year Proj)
just 1 point to show how nice she is here. she is so natural in front of us, even put her legs on her table while chatting with us. i love her! nikki rocks!

everyone in e team want to do our fyp well, make it our proud, with our full passion n energy

but things never go just as smooth and as easy as you hope. it just never.

i have to HAVE TO have to face e FACT that e topic, which i personally strongly feel it's meaningful n for justice of certain group of people, is not viable for now. i have to keep reminding myself to accept this n stop hoping for doing it.

n we have plenty of other topics. r we getting the list of topics because we try so hard to fish / have / get a topic? i dont like e way we meeting all these topics... it's like you write for the sake of writing, you read for the sake of examination. oh no...

i prefer to ask myself, if there's only 1 documentary i can do in my life, what will i dedicate it for?

if it is very personal one. probably about my family. my parents n grandparents. sometime we need this kind of 'occasional' opportunity to get deep in touch with e people whom we r supposedly so close with yet we know them so poorly.

for i m doing e docu with a team... we need to think for others.

is GLBT a good idea? will my dearest darling disagree with me (who he perceived immature n too stupid to protect myself) doing on GLBT?

why GLBT?
1. i believe their choices is either they were born with it or they were shaped by their environment (of course, my belief is based on e people i met)
2. even they dont know, and i also dont know why they make such choices, i dont think their choices is 'wrong'. they just have different choices. they r not raping each other, but loving and caring for whom they naturally fond of.

for these two simple and direct reasons, it is enough for me to do something for them. hopefully, they will be happier living their loved ones, not only their 'darling', but also their parents, siblings, relatives whom they love deeply always, no matter what their choices are.

if u have heard how people in other countries working so hard n liveing so thriftyly to get money to get their operation done. if u ve heard how those educated elites behind me smuckles when they think they are morally higher than GLBT, simply because they are straight. when u know he is gay n he needs to say 'gays r disgusting' in front of so many people because that's dominant morality in our society, did you ever think about how he feels? what if there r laughters when he says this....?

oh no...