忽然发现自己喜欢淞浦和王家卫之间的共同点

在做每周必做却并不能感受到乐趣的烫衣服时
突然间就蹦出来一个想法

看淞浦的书时，总是有“这样也可以写成书吗？”的感觉
我想他的魔法是，把所有人都忽略的小事，放大
让人在阅读时感觉到幸福和美好

王家卫的电影也很没有剧情，甚至没有没有起承转合
总是一件一句话就可以说完的故事
不过，却在看电影的时候，感觉到惊讶
看完后有“这样也是一部电影吗？”

想念自己的文化，和懂我懂的东西的人，和不懂不过愿意听我说的人

我在马、新、中居住过。第一次长期住在一个没有中文的国家。我的意思是，没有本地的、本国的中文文化。

而我的生活当中，说中文的老公是我和自己的华裔血统的唯一联系。他是唯一一位和我说中文的人，所有和华族有关的文化元素，如电影、音乐、书籍、节日、食物，只有他可能理解我的爱好。

当世界以这样的方式在面前展开，有时让人措手不及。像从尼泊尔去纽约念书的孩子。一开始感到新奇，对所有完全不同的思维、向人问候的方式、生活的态度、环境包括天气阳光和星星都感到为自己的生命添加了许多以前甚至不知到其存在的元素。然而，我正处于一个文化上感到饥渴的状态。同时，对本地人熟悉的电影、音乐、文学也还没有进入熟悉的阶段。不过，我想这是一个过程。最后，希望可以在两地、中西文化中游刃有余。

兄弟姐妹 Siblings

I am a lucky girl, with four younger siblings. We are all two years older from the next one. 

Growing up, we eat breakfast circling the dining table 5 o'clock in the mornings before school, six days a week. We eat dinner together, seven of us circling the dining table every evenings. I never ever thought this is not going to last long. 

No. None of us is sick or whatever. When I was 19, I left home to study. I was back home about 1-2 times a month. "Going home", I used to describe these journeys. Sisters was in their upper primary school years and lower high school years when I first left my family. They pretty much passed their teenage years without big big sister living at home.

And I never ever thought, not so many years after, my younger brother, who's two years younger, has bought his own house, where he and his partner are gonna live in and raise their own family in that house. And for me, I am living quite far away now, saving for a house for me and my partner as well. 

I never ever thought, breakfast together, all the chit-chats and laughter only lasted for the early 18 years of my life. I would have hoped it would be forever. But that is certainly just a big fat dream.

All I can see of them is from their photos and videos shared on Fb. All I can hear of them is from Skype or Line. All I can know more about how they are is through their Fb posts or blog entries. 

This is just one story of how many siblings and families in my generation live like. We are going around the world, pursuing what we think is valuable to us. We are staying together digitally. With a family group page or a family group chat on Fb or our mobile devices.