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1 is it easier to live what you love, or love what you live?

she interviewed me.
she asked, so you work in team before?
she asked, do you intend to stay here for long term?
she asked, do you have anything to ask me?
she said, i guess this is good enough for today.

those who write column articles.
these who do radio hosting.
we who want to advise someone abt something.

we tend to portray a beautiful scene out of the reality mixture with goods & bads.

2 after coming from a stroll

i guess to answer my question.
i just have to love (a little bit) what i live till i live what i love.

written mid 2013

beginning of a (hopefully) series of 13

maybe it was a really great weekend spent
felt superbly energized after getting my self-made mocha this morning

having lots of thoughts and feelings in mind and heart
thinking about writing about my first 12 mths in Oz
there is only one first for everyone in anything
and first year in Oz must have made a lot of changes in me

sometimes,
i wonder, with more and more people posting and writing
who's reading
when i write, is it to help me think, help me remember, intend to be useful to someone else or... simply trying to say i am different

anyway, i guess, like my sis Yun shared with me last night something i shared with her previously
according to her, i said, dont think beyond what's necessary
some parts are just never think-able or imaginable so there's no point thinking TOO MUCH

hmm... that sounds like something i would say, doesn't it?

thus, let me start my Mar 2013 look back now.

18-28-38

去年，在寻找工作的过程中有个认识自己的练习。（详情请阅What color is your parachute?）认识自己的练习当中的第一部分是写自己的十个身份，然后从当中找出任何共通之处。

Last year, while i was searching for jobs, there was a exercise i did about discover/knowing oneself. (For more details, pls refer to What Color is Your Parachute?) First step to know oneself was to write down 10 identities, then find what are the elements in common.

以下是我当时写下的十个身份：audio lover音响爱好者（声音、广播、音乐）、reader读者、traveler旅者、slacker懒者（在河边散步、慢慢旅行、慢泡好咖啡）、姐姐、good/caring person、learner学习者、activist活动者、France Culture Explorer法国文化探索者、Jogger跑者

Below is a list of my 10 identities written down: Audio lover (sounds, radio, music), reader, traveler, slacker (strolling by the river, travelling slow, making good coffee slow), sister, good/caring person, learner, activist, france culture explorer, jogger. 

说以上是18岁以后慢慢发展成的自己不为过。包括当姐姐这件事，在弟弟妹妹进入少年时期，姐姐的身份才进入另一种层次。再也不可能也不该是由上往下的那种训导。更多是平行的交换。我想接下来的人生，如果都能享受这种平行的交换，那会是非常美好的事。

It is not an overstatement to say that i have developed these identities since 18 year-old. Even the matter of being a sister. It was during the teenage years of younger bros & siss when I find being a sister has evolved into something different. One cannot and should not advise younger ones top down anymore. Instead there's been a lot more horizontal exchange. i hope for the rest of life, i will be able to enjoy this horizontal exchange with my ever growing & maturing bros & siss.

今年28了。（在我心中，以今年减出生年份最直接，所以我的年纪是从1月1日算起的）
刚好离相隔十个月后回家还有十天。刚好今天心血来潮。来想想38岁时的自己的十个身份该有哪些。

This year, I am 28. For it is 10 days away from being home again after 10 months. For i have the muse to write down the 10 identities i hope to own when I age 38. Here they are.

French Reader & Movie lover 法文文学和电影爱好者
Yoga as exercise 练瑜伽的人
Amateur photographer 业余摄影者
Reader 读者
Volunteer/Social activist 志工/社会运动者
Amateur writer in Chinese & English 业余写作者
Barista 咖啡吃
Learner 学习者（希望届时已学会基本Graphic Design、哲学、教育等现阶段感兴趣的事）
Music Lover 爱听音乐的人
Good person 好人

以上十个身份是需要去慢慢磨出来的，而一些身份它将自然而然产生，也十分期待
妻子-母亲-姐姐-女儿-阿姨-姑姑-好朋友

For the 10 identities above, which i find them not much different from the current 10, yet there are still lots and lots of effort to be made. I look forward to some other identities that will naturally occur from time to time. Wife-Mum-Sis-Daughter-Aunt-Good friend

放在自己从开始到现在一直在经营的博克上。希望38岁的自己能完成以上所有的事

This note is posted for the 38 year-old self on a online space i have farmed and will continuously farmed. How many of these will i achieve when i am 38?